Insecurities of the heart

by Tuesday, August 4, 2015

I find myself doing a lot of soul searching lately so I’m going to keep it real with you guys if that’s alright.

It’s 1:22 AM and I can’t sleep cause I have a lot on my mind ya’ll. Having graduated college a few months ago I feel like the road ahead is a scary one.

Being in school provided me with balance and now I don’t have that. Let me elaborate on that! I had 4 classes per week so that meant Tuesdays and Thursdays I would be up at 10 am and out the door by 11:30. I had classes from around 12 to 9pm. Β Wednesday, Fridays, and Saturday I was working. Sunday I slept in all day, and watched some Netflix series or Youtube!! and on Mondays I was scrambling to get all my homework done for class the next day. (He-he! )

Now that I am out of school I find myself with so much free time I don’t know what to do with myself. Granted I do work and I actually am taking on a second job so I can save some money so I’m sure I will be pretty busy from now on. But even though I am going to be working a lot more I still feel like there is something else I should be doing. Life is more than what we do in the office, and I feel like if I don’t find that thing to do outside of work I will continue to feel empty.

Yes of course I blog, which I love to do. However, I want more! There just gotta be something else that I can throw myself in ya know. I have been thinking of a few things but I don’t want to say them out loud yet because I am a little unsure but mostly just a scaredy cat.

If any of you can relate to what I am feeling, please share your thoughts with me! What have you guys been up to this week?

Holla at ya girl in the comments!


insecurities of the heart

Slicked back the hair today… not sure if I love it or hate it

self esteem

peep my vision board in the back tho!

21 Responses
  • Maggie A
    September 3, 2015

    25 graduated 3 years ago and I am now finding myself. I felt the same way I was working a part-time till I graduated and began working full time for the last 3 years. (I HATED it). I made sure to channel all the free time I had into my blog and youtube channel not only to take my mind off how much I disliked my job but also to continue to feed my creative urges. Fast forward to today. I’m finally working a job I’ve dreamed (at least one of them) of since high school and forcing to find time to feed my passion which is the beauty and fashion I do. Some people’s lives are cut short before they even have a chance to find themselves. Don’t worry and don’t stress. Just coast and enjoy the ride. It will come to you. In the mean time keep posting I enjoy your content <3

    Maggie A

    • Ronlet Lovejoy
      September 4, 2015

      thanks maggie that means a lot!

  • idu
    August 15, 2015

    Have a great weekend darling.

  • Stephanie
    August 13, 2015

    Great post. Love your black and white photos. So pretty! Hang in there!

    August 10, 2015

    Nice photos πŸ™‚
    Maria V.

  • idu
    August 8, 2015

    You are doing some soul searching and that’s a good place to start. Have you considered going back to school? Between that, your job and your blog, your free time will be pretty much spent. I wish I had some free time, there’s always something to do. Have a fun rest of the weekend darling.

    • Ronlet Lovejoy
      August 9, 2015

      Hi dear. I am definitely not interested in getting my masters right now though. Too expensive. Thank you for leaving a comment πŸ™‚

  • Agnes
    August 7, 2015

    You should definitely get into a sport! Like start yoga or cross fitting. Or even start learning a new language, or instrument πŸ™‚ Hope this helps!

    Agnes x

    • Ronlet Lovejoy
      August 9, 2015

      Hi dear, those are some really good suggestions. I should def start working out again . Thanks for leaving a comment πŸ™‚

  • Elements of Ellis
    August 6, 2015

    Finishing school is such a weird feeling because it’s all you’ve done for the past 16 years. I hope you find something you love to do!

    • Ronlet Lovejoy
      August 9, 2015

      Hi dear, it really is. On one end you relish in all that freedom but on another its like what now. Thanks for leaving a comment πŸ™‚

  • Fenna
    August 6, 2015

    Oh yes, been there! Girl, it’s time for you to take up running and train to run a marathon! Your time will never be quite the same again.

    • Ronlet Lovejoy
      August 9, 2015

      hi hun, running a marathon is actually something i’ve always wanted to cross off my bucket list… I’m scared tho… when I run I find myself being so bored… its more mental than anything I find… how do you do it? Thanks for leaving a comment πŸ™‚

  • Renard Moreau
    August 5, 2015

    [ Smiles ] Soul searching is good; it helps to keep us on track.

    If I were you, I would send a few pictures of myself to some of the top modelling agencies in my free time.

    Do take it one day at a time and there is nothing really to be scared of.

    • Ronlet Lovejoy
      August 5, 2015

      thanks hun! I appreciate you saying that πŸ™‚

  • Jeanne
    August 5, 2015

    I’m sure you’ll quickly find what to do to make you feel totally fulfilled. Gorgeous pictures by the way! I love your style.XOXO

    • Ronlet Lovejoy
      August 5, 2015

      thanks Jeanne!:) sure hope so

  • Lorna
    August 4, 2015

    Have you thought about volunteering or doing work experiences in places instead? I did that when I wanted more and I couldn’t figure things out. I tried floristry and jewellery making etc and just figuring things out in various work places. It definitely helps! I think you have model features though, facially you take a great photo!

    Raindrops of Sapphire

    • Ronlet Lovejoy
      August 5, 2015

      that’s a splendid idea hun. I need to look into volunteering for sure. Thank you for the compliments as well πŸ™‚

  • Anett
    August 4, 2015

    I can definitely relate. Most of the time I have waaay to much free time, more than I know what to do with. Then sometimes I don’t even have a free minute… Don’t worry, things will sort themselves out eventually πŸ˜‰

    Bella Pummarola

    • Ronlet Lovejoy
      August 5, 2015

      thanks for stopping by! glad i’m not alone here… and i sure hope they do πŸ™‚

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